Undo

Have you ever done something, or said something, and as soon as you did it, it seemed like the world slowed down? All of a sudden, you’re in the Matrix, or time stops like you’re Hiro Nakamura and you instantly realize two things:

1. You’re an incredible idiot.
2. This is going to be bad.

It’s in times like that that I wonder why God didn’t make life with a reset button, someway we could restart our day and erase those bad moments that make us look bad and hurt the people we love. Life would be so much easier if, when I noticed I’d done something stupid, I could just whip out the reset button and start over. But…..I don’t think that’s really living.

Maybe that’s why God didn’t make a reset button, because we need to live with our mistakes, feel the pain of what we’ve done, and let it transform us into different people, ones who no longer act the way we did. Inevitably, every time I do or say something stupid and have the face the consequences of it, I always try to not be in those situations again. I make a conscious effort. Pain is our way of learning, of correcting. There is always a lesson to be learned, even when we bring the pain on ourselves. If we had a reset button, what lessons would we learn?

We’d learn that it’s ok to break rules, to duck consequences, to shift blame even more than we do now. We would develop a God complex where each day had to be perfect and no one made any mistakes…and those that allowed mistakes….what would happen to them? Would they become the new low class? Would we shun them, casting them into exile and turning them into pariahs? Or would the reset button eventually cause us to destroy ourselves?

I guess I’m kinda glad we have to live with our mistakes.

If I’ve ever hurt you…..I’m sorry…but I’m becoming a better person. I don’t have a reset button, I don’t want one. Hopefully you can forget about what I’ve said or done and life can move on. Thanks.

~ by Marty on May 13, 2009.